26.11.07

The Stellazio Story [FF9]

"The Story of 12 Zodiacs"

The 11 Zodiacs pondered. How best to catch Virgo's heart? Aries headed east.

Cancer headed to the cape where Virgo waited. The sun was setting into the ocean. Would he finally see her?
Scorpio was very timid. He always looked at his shadow until one day he decided to look away. He walked up a hill.

Gemini thought by the river, 'I will sing her a song.' He didn't know where she was, but he hoped his song would reach her.

Taurus had an idea. He would give Virgo a gift. Through the forest and over the mountain, he found a star.

Watching the sunset from the cape, Virgo whispered "My only wish is to be with you now..."

Libra was a perverse fellow. He would always walk in the opposite direction of the sun. Would he ever see Virgo?

Leo was waiting for the sun to set into the ocean. Then Cancer showed up, and they began to fight. Into the ocean they fell..."

Sagittarius dashed through the night, defying the chilly northern wind that was stinging his right cheek

Impatient Capricorn ran up a hill toward the sun and fell asleep from exhaustion

Aquarius arrived late. He asked everyone, "Who kissed Virgo?"

Pisces said to Aquarius, "Virgo made her choice. Go see her and she'll tell you the rest."




Their future was uncertain, but Scorpio and Virgo kissed in the light of dusk. That moment meant everything.

- The Stellazio Story
Taken from Final Fantasy 9 by Squaresoft


For those who haven't played Final Fantasy 9, the story presented was one of the sidequests in the game. This was one of the few things which I see meaningful in the game. The story of the 12 Zodiacs. I have no idea what genre this story lands itself on, nor think of it as an essential "must-know" for everyone, but I believe that the story has something to tell us. I've understood the story in such a way that I see the 11 Zodiacs, not competing for Virgo's affection or love, but searching the truth in their feelings. How true were their feelings for Virgo? In the end, it is not in what a person has to offer that matters but how sincere the offering is. Was their feelings true or was it just a simple desire to see Virgo's beauty? There are things in life that remain finite, but the are things that remain eternal. Sometimes we search for things in places which we believe hold what we are searching for, but how sure are we that it is the RIGHT place? We tend to stay on the paths that were made before us for we fear of getting lost, and thus gaining almost nothing in the process. Despite the fact that when we take risks, we get hurt and may even lose everything we have, but in the end we find what we are searching for. All we needed was a little courage to turn away from what we already know and venture into the unknown. In the end, we find the truth in what we've been looking for; the same truth that Scorpio had found in Virgo's arms.

posted by ISo8 @ 8:40 PM 1 Comments

18.11.07

WHY?!

Why am I still expecting?


I can’t believe that she’s still there in my mind. Every thing was still clear to me; the thoughts of how she looked like and the fact that she was never mine. It’s difficult to see her laugh or even cry without me by her side. It’s difficult to accept the possibility that she has no memory of me anymore. After all, I’ve never had the courage to speak or even make myself materialize in front of her. Damn. What a jerk I am.


So why am I expecting?


I have no idea why. I have no idea why I should even remember her or even know her name. I have no idea why I should expect a buzz from her except her endorsements and group messages. I have no idea why I still remember her favorite color or even the first and last letter I gave her. The letter which I believe is now in some trash bin or recycling center. I’ve tried to forget her but I can’t. The regret that I never had the courage to speak to her still haunts me. The regret when all I did was to look away when I had a chance still resides inside my thoughts. Her smile and laughter still resounds in my ears. She still makes my heart weep for sorrow.


Damn. She made me forget my file case.

posted by ISo8 @ 11:02 AM 0 Comments

5.11.07

Missing everyone...kahit hindi halata.

I've been missing everyone.

Ironic, isn't it? I meet these people everyday, talk to them, laugh with them; yet I feel somethings is missing. I'm not asking a lot from people; hell, I'm not even asking anything from anyone. I just feel weird lately. Well, weirder than the usual anyway.

Don't ask me if I'm ok. You should know better that I would just say "Ayos lang ako" or " Yep! *insert weird smiley here* " or even run behind you screaming like a kid, making weird "kokey-like" sounds. To tell you the truth, I'm not really ok when I get too "hyper" like that. To be really truthful, a lot of things have really been bothering me lately and I feel that everything might crash around me anytime soon. To be really, really truthful, I'd rather not say anything to someone. Why? because I don't feel like it and I don't even know how to say it. I'm not really a very expressive person. You can even read what's going on in my mind when you concentrate really hard >.<. I really don't like anyone to be burdened by my own problems. I believe it's my resposibility to fix the problems that I encounter. You can just sit on the bleachers and watch as I battle it out myself....against a team of monsters.

I'm really annoyed at all the shit I've been showing the class. Some people have even started seeing behind my mask, yet I still try my best not to show everything. It's not that I don't trust any of you, it's simply because I'm not feeling myself for the past 4 years. I'm not dying from any sickness or anything *knocks on wood*.

Hahaha, no wonder you see me as a weirdo. ; )

Sidenote: I erased the warblog entry before this. Just so you know, it's about 3 people who, for me, badly needs to change. I really hope they do, but if they choose to stay like that, I would gladly accept it.

posted by ISo8 @ 7:08 PM 0 Comments